Don't get me wrong. I'm not sad because I screwed it up. i'm sad because during the run, I didn't know what I was running for. For the love of running, or just for victory? While I was running the 80m, I was very sure my mind was on the finishing line, to finish first. But now, I know I was wrong. We shouldn't be doing things for victory or success. We should be doing it for the love of it, and because we have a passion for it. I definitely got my priorities wrong during the run.
PASSION. That word's really true, strong and powerful. And that's exactly what I have for track. That burning desire to be out there sprinting on the track as though you're like the wind. That feeling's just, indescribable. But the sad part is, we humans don't know what appreciating is. Only when we've lost it, we regret.
Okay, here's the main part. I tripped at the finishing line. And just when I overtook the girl in front of me. Hmm... I was racing against a tracker, who of course got first in my heat. Then I overtook the second, but the gap was like, I don't know, a few cm? That's why my whole race when BOOM! And that, was the end.
Well, I'm still happy. That's because I got a chance to run. I'd rather lose than not get a chance to run at all. That feeling is terrible. To me, running is like, the whole world. I don't know what I'd do without it. So at the finishing line, definitely, I was disappointed. But later on, I thought and told myself," Hey, you got a chance to run. Wasn't that all you wanted? To be able to run is as good as winning gold. But if you win, it's a bonus."
At this point, I can't help but remembering Mr Wee's words. We're not afraid to lose, but we don't want to lose. Yes. That's true. That's very true. I mean, who loves losing? I don't like to lose either. But, I'm not afraid as I believe I can always pick myselfup again. Like the 80m race. I tripped, but I didn't fall, I continued running till I past the finishing line. I applaud myself for that.
In the end, failure isn't what counts. It's really the fun and experience behind the whole thing that really counts. Winning is a bonus. I know what it feels like, because everytime I look at the medals from last years' track Nationals, I always have this really good feeling inside me. Some feeling that simply can't be put into words.
Yeah. I know this post is super draggy, but, that's all I want to say. And it's really from the bottom of my heart. Sincerely. I know that I really love track. Really, sincerely. It will always have this special place in my heart.
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You call me JUDITH! You wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY on 31 December every year (: Being me is just too awesome :D 203 is where I belong. DR DOOFENSHMIRTZ IS MY INSPIRATION AND I WANT TO WORK IN DOOFENSHMIRTZ EVIL INCORPORATED!